| Ever since turning 35 years old I've had a nagging | | | | always wanted or thought you might one day |
| feeling that my life had somehow changed. Where | | | | have, just on a more realistic scale. Thus begins |
| once there was wonder and amazement at the | | | | my quest for musicians to jam with. I tried the |
| simple things in life like a cloudless summer day, or | | | | band thing when I was a teen and wasn't |
| the unspoilt scenery of the countryside, these | | | | impressed. There were too many people with |
| things stir little inside of me. It takes a lot more to | | | | large egos trying to railroad everyone else into |
| excite me now than a few years ago. I talked to | | | | doing it their way. Now I'm more mature, I'm |
| my friends who were the same age as me, and | | | | looking for people like me who just want to enjoy |
| yes they felt the same way. What was it - | | | | playing music for the sake of playing music. I've |
| what's changed? | | | | readjusted my dreams. Now I just want to find |
| We came to conclusion that it was hope we had | | | | some people to play with. No false hopes of |
| lost - the hope of a better tomorrow. When we | | | | becoming famous and gigging way into my |
| were younger the future was always there and | | | | seventies! Just regular guys and girls who also |
| we'd always be young enough to change our lives | | | | have lives they love, but want to play music with |
| and change our fortunes. The realisation that | | | | others. |
| we've reached and passed the peak of our lives | | | | For me playing the guitar and singing helps me |
| is a shocking one. It's too late for me now to get | | | | feel grounded and at peace with the world and I |
| that degree and become a lawyer. I'm never | | | | know others feel the same way about their |
| going to go to university and then on to become | | | | music and their instruments. It's important not to |
| a world famous brain surgeon. Don't get me | | | | lose sight of the fact that just because we're not |
| wrong, I love my life and I love my family, it's | | | | young doesn't mean life is over. As long as I'm still |
| just that I always thought that one day I'd make | | | | physically capable I will still be playing my guitar |
| the 'big time'. | | | | and singing my heart out. The dream of strapping |
| I've played guitar and sung since I was nine years | | | | the guitar to my back and riding my motorbike |
| old. Learning more and more songs and even | | | | off into the sunset might be gone now but that |
| writing a few of my own. I believed that one day | | | | doesn't diminish the pleasure both give me. |
| I'd make it. Perhaps a talent scout would hear me | | | | So who cares if my band is never going to get a |
| play or I'd get around to making that demo tape | | | | song in the charts (or even play on stage at |
| and sending it off. Sadly a hundred and one other | | | | Butlins!)? Does it really matter if I'm never going |
| things got in the way - girls, cars, motorbikes, | | | | to be a champion motorcycle racer? There are |
| work, marriage and kids. I wouldn't change any of | | | | enough people in my life who love me and enjoy |
| that for the world, but now I'm in my mid-thirties | | | | listening to me playing guitar and singing to make |
| it's finally occurred to me that my big break's just | | | | me feel perfectly happy with today.. and |
| not going to happen. | | | | tomorrow. Now that I'm finding people to play |
| The answer to being happy once in your | | | | music with my wonder at the world we live in has |
| mid-thirties is to fill your life with the things you | | | | finally returned. |